ad astra per aspera

The first day was somewhat positive. Some patience is helpful; if I want a million dollars, I cannot expect it within the first week. The Secret uses the word 'manifest', but the process is easier for me when I hold on to the feelings. How will it feel when I have this thing I want? If I could focus on this a bit better, I would have more positive results. Interruptions and lapses in the focus make it easy for the old ways to return, aargh!

I am doing some paperwork, and it could use some strengthening and polishing, maybe 8 hours of dedicated work (a couple of days). I spent 90 min on it, and during the work my mind would drift. This is a better result than the day before, as I would usually find a way to check email or work on unimportant/unurgent tasks.

A great bisector for life is work and home. I cannot bring the problems from one into the other.

Having such a well balanced partner makes this part so easy. I am reminded again of how lucky I was to find Sheree. Goals at home are much closer, and we are already making great progress.

Life is full of both good and bad, and for years I have doubled the bad by self-punishment, often pushing me into sullen withdrawal. The escapes from such bouts of depression are rarely healthy: alcohol and television are life-destroyers, 4 hour bouts of poker and scrabble can interfere with close relationships.

My ability to handle setbacks is improving. There are just a few tricks I use, but they start with replacing the negative.